Random Musings

1. 13
   Apr
   

   Day Three

   Would you even miss me if I left?

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   Today was…bleh I’m not sure. I had a lot of fun in English, we watched American History X, and Smiley sat next to meeee! =). Anyway, American History X was pretty violent, but the acting and story telling was excellent. In some way, watching films like those make me feel sad, but I can’t exactly explain what triggers me to feel that way. Actually, lately all I’ve been feeling is sad. I think I really need a change of environment.

   After micro, me, Sylvia, Shirley, Ke, and Shelley went to eat lunch and I stayed with them for a while before Fernando came and whisked me away. We printed out some flyers, met up with Nav, put them up everywhere and then Nav had to go. Bumped into Hannah and Daixin while I was bumming on the sixth floor. That was fun.

   After everyone left, me and Fernando just talked while we waited for class. He told me a lot about his relationships and I just listened. Sometimes it amazes me how open some people can be. I could never reveal so much about myself to someone I barely know as comfortably as he did. Sometimes I wish I could.

   Anyway, after that we went to law and class actually went by decently fast today. I left with Shirley and ran into Gaymond on the train. *Sigh* As usual, he made a scene and I ended up stepping on some old guy’s feet. So embarrassing >< Man I hate Gaymond.  

   Came home, didn’t feel like working on my speech (on love). We’re supposed to be writing about something and familiarize ourselves with the topic well enough to teach the class. But the more I think about it, the more I wish I didn’t choose love. I mean what do I know about love anyway? Apparently, not enough. 

   I told him the truth about what I might do next year. He didn’t seem phased. Can’t say I didn’t expect it.

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   Edit: I am never going to do this again.