Random Musings

1. 14
   Apr
   

   Day Four

   Went to court for the first time today. It was pretty interesting, it definitely was not as uptight as I thought it would be. Shirley and I listened a to a whole series of cases until we found one that covered subject matter we were familiar with and could hear clearly. Chased after attorneys after the cases but they didn’t have briefs =/. Thankfully, the clerks office was more helpful, and they were sooo nice! (They offered me twizzlers =D). 

   Anyway, only went to half of my classes today (missed the other half with profs approval of course, I’m not a cutter! =P). Com went okay. I would have went today I guess…but I was also pretty relieved when time ran out and I couldn’t go. This speech is supposed to be lively and romantic but all I think about when it comes to love is you and the fact that even if you loved me, it wouldn’t be enough. There’s just too many other factors to consider. 

   Didn’t feel like talking much to anyone else today either. Smiled and laughed with Sylvia and Jonathan throughout lunch, but really I just wanted the day to be over already. Com didn’t pan over so smoothly either. Talked to Loretta about speeches, discussed meetings with Fanta, Leonard, and Konstantin. Nothing much. Got home and talked briefly with Sylvia. Stayed invisible to everyone else on BOTH sns today. I keep forgetting that purevampire is on. Anyway, the only person I’m still talking to is the dino.

   Bleh…lately I keep feeling misplaced. On the one hand, I really really really hope a certain university in New York would accept me, because I truly want to study there more than anything else. And on the other hand, I feel the pressure from people who want me to stay where I am for another 3 years….and I just don’t think I can do it. I can’t go on doing things just because they please other people. I need to start thinking  more about what I want too.

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   If love alone was enough, would you have picked me?